Sometimes the hardest part isn’t letting go but rather learning to start over.
I slipped a note under your bedroom door
See the sunshine
Breathe the air
Stop trying to drown yourself
In lies and bottles.
You’re worth more than that
Than what some cheap whore did to mess you up
Than who your parents turned out to be
Than who your friends are behind your back
So at least try to save yourself.
[I cut right to the chase now
If they don’t listen, they don’t listen.
But I’ll still try to save them.]
Earlier days, when I was just starting out,
I thought that I could save everyone
I made it my business to do so,
Their lives, their welfare,
It was on me.
At least that’s what I told myself.
But it wasn’t,
And I can’t stop
The stones from rolling down the hills, picking up speed along the way, until it hits the bottom
I’m tired of being Sisyphus,
Pushing and pulling each boulder to the top
Only to have it roll down the next day.
You have to try
You have to want to get better
You have to want to save yourself
Know that you are worth saving
That you deserve happiness
Don’t let the guilt burn through you like acid eating at your skin
I wish you’d be straight with me, for once
Everyone feels the same things, just in different ways
You aren’t alone, you’re never alone
You need to know that, have it etched inside your mind when you feel like you’re the only one going through the pain
You’ll get through it.
It’ll get better.
It always does.